Saturday, May 10, 2003

I see there is a few minutes left in this day...or was when I started this blog.

Got home from work. PC still on. I'm still on-line. So why not tap out a few lines.

Missed a nice hello from a couple of buddies. Sorry.
Carried the girls in to their beds. One more night on swing this week I think. Uugh! Who wants to think at this time of night...reminescent of the old days when the party was just getting started around 10 or 11pm.(hehheh) My children were an exceptional trade in :)

A co-worker stopped by work this eve to let me know that the play I missed, put on by highschool kids, was pretty good. Thinking...thinking...thinking...I don't remember the name of it. Was one of the classics though. I'm sorry. My bad. It's on again tomorrow night at 7pm. Maybe I can get someone to fill in for me a couple hours while I take the girls. I'll let you know. I promise either way to get the name. (heh)

Earlier today I got the luxury of crawling through my attic. While it was 68 degrees outside, which by the way is particularly warm for SE Alaska, it must have been closer to 88 up there. I was looking to see exactly how my bathroom vent was installed. It was a bit reluctant to come down. Needs to be replaced. Was thoroughly happy afterwards, taking a semi-cold shower to rinse the fiberglass off and head to work with the windows down on my Ford Explorer, A lovely skyblue. Hey, I got it off the used lot! (shrugz) I am used to the teasing by the guyz at work your small snickers just roll off my back. (hehe)

(LOL) More thinking. I am definitely the family dude now. Traded in the two seater sporty convertible for an SUV. While there is no top to remove I still roll the windows down and blast the tunes. Song selected? Robbie Williams "Feel". How's that for a hip to be square dad? (Shrugz) Oh well. Whatever. It still blows my hair back.

And so as you think of your more nostalgic moments (Hopefully you're just as out of touch as I am) I bid you a radical evening. I, on the other hand, am off to dreamland. Good night :)

Friday, May 09, 2003

WOW! Didn't mean to be gone sooo long. And no I wasn't in a coma. Although it would explain why I haven't written in here, for how long?A decacade? I almost forgot this was here. And I definitely forgot my username and password. I hope I publish words more often this go around. But I doubt it. It's the nature of the beast.

Let's see...
I tried an internet relationship. It was awesome. But those ridiculous things I say that always drive people away was said, and I regret having lost someone sooo special.

Low Self-Esteem has been my problem for years. External elements played a role in wrecking my self-esteem. It wasn't until recently have I admitted that I have low-self esteem.

My head is getting mixed up and dizzy. So I am just gonna stop for now. Talk at ya later

Friday, December 13, 2002

last night on graveyard I was in a major brainstorm. I swear I am onto something revolutionary. But I cant pull it out. Anyways, in the middle of a melt down I thought of an old favorite by The Cure.

Lyrics : For how much longer can I howl into this wind For how much longer can I cry like this A thousand wasted hours a day Just to feel my heart for a second A thousand hours just thrown away Just to feel my heart for a second For how much longer can I howl into this wind

Thursday, December 12, 2002

I worked graveyard shift lastnight. This being 2hours after my 1st entry here. Let me tell you as a perfectionist I did alot of floor pacing. I wasnt entirely satisfied with my 1st entry. I thought up a billion ways I could have made it better. I also got excited (geek that I am) about my 1st entry, and wanted to enter more. I thought of what useless banter I could add, and how to incorporate it into a website, etc. Fortunately, staying awake was my #1 priority. I usually keep myself up much too late on nights I should be sleeping. Incidently, I average about 3 - 5 hours of sleep. I know this should be catching up to me soon enough.
I think I managed to change the template of this thing.
In the future we can expect more of that as well as some sort of website to add the usual (v)irtual (p)laces stuff. I dont think I actually want to run a paintshop though, since I am spread thin enough as it is.
Define thin? okay. I am a single Dad (age34) with 3 daughters, ages 3, 5, and 7. I have a rotating shift at the local power company.

My wish list includes a palm pilot :)

Wednesday, December 11, 2002

1st entry - (off the record) ok, so as dumb as I am, I am still eager to learn new things. Bare with me as I find my way through this life and through this journal.
(official ceremony...)With you as my witness, I do hereby christen "the grapvine" to share my thoughts and feelings, which is important to me because:
1. I have friends and family who care to share my existence and give meaning to my life.

2. I feel that my thoughts are important enough for you to agree and disagree with...thus giving meaning to my life.

3. If I put my blog on the superhighway I am actually contributing to the life and existence of the internet, which as you may have already guessed, gives meaning to my life.

Enjoy :)